If you feel that ... You are like a bow that gets strained each time after release. This force that makes your back bend is which you must tame to serve you. So that you can aim your own ziel. You should take yourself in your newly created hand and use that bow and arrow. But don't forget, your shots are limited. That's what gives sense to your shots. Or is it that thought of your limits that you think that you have to shot. What should this energy be used for... good question...? And so on.